late for work again

And suddenly when I begin to think how much life is sucking at this moment, something happens and I find myself the luckiest girl in the world.

Are You Listeningggggg?

http://biz.yahoo.com/bw/080623/20080623006182.html?.v=1

I think I'd win.

family

I wish I had a little sister. I never really wanted one growing up, but now I wish I did have one. I always tell people not to complain about their siblings because they'll appreciate them when they're older. And I would know because I don't have that sibling bond with anyone. Recently I've adopted one, Madeleine; she's 10. She has a little brother who's 4 and older sisters who are much older, but we clicked. I'll miss her while she's gone for the summer, but I'll see her in the fall and when we go to Colorado in December.

I think I like babysitting for the B's so much because I feel like part of their family. Its fun to have a bunch of people running around, even if it gets crazy and hectic sometimes. Maybe those Hansons are onto something.

C

I know a little girl who's 4 years old. She's probably one of the strongest people I've ever met. She had open heart surgery last Thursday and came home on Monday. All she wanted to do was play with her sister and go back to school. It makes all my problems seem foolish and furthers my belief that you need to make your moments happen.

go make a life, not a living

Live life to the fullest: that's what everyone says, but tell me how many people actually do? I know so few people who actually live that way that it makes it seem so generic. You know like when people write "have a great summer, good luck next year" in a yearbook or "thanks for the great gift, I really appreciate it" in a thank you card. Maybe some people don't get it until they have a pivitol moment in their life. Maybe some people are too scared and care too much what people think about them.

But why? Why does something life altering have to happen for you to do something you want to do?

I think I've always known life could be worse or there might not be a tomorrow. I've been somewhat of a risk taker as long as I can remember. When I was little, I would try to get the swing as high as it would go so I could jump off and go really far. I never really got hurt and I did soar pretty high on some occassions. When I got older, I would strategically plan my going out with my study schedule. I wouldn't ever not do something I wanted, I'd just sleep less.

What I think is that people do actually think they're living life to the fullest, but they're not. They think always working for the next best thing is what's important. But its not, what if you never get there? What if that's not really want you want? You need to live for the moments, you need to make the moments happen. Of course you have to work towards those hard goals that you want to acheive but don't skip out on other things because some stuff has a limited time option.

children

That's what my life is consumed by, obv ones that do not belong to me but children nonetheless. Monday through Friday I spend my days with 18-21 2 1/2 to 3 1/2 year olds and weekends are spent babysitting the B's or other children in my class. Not that I have anything else to do because I have to save all my money.

I think the irony of the situation is that I use all my money that I make to help support the children of another family.

I'm going to be head teacher starting June 30. I'm not really worried about it, more just unprepared because I didn't think the switch would take place until September. I'm hapy about it for one main reason though. It's a little bit more money and a lot more paperwork, but I'm sure I'll be fine. I get along well with all the parents and I've learned a lot since I've been there.
I guess I'm just stimulating the economy, helping out the oil companues, airlines, and apple turnover makers.