you use me up I keep on holding on

6 sleepless nights, 5 shows, and 3 walks later; I'm through my first week of tour that wasn't purely revolved around touring. It's weird to come home after shows and work, it's even weirder knowing I'm not where the show is right now. I don't really know how to deal with it or if I really want to deal with it. I have 2 maybe 3 more shows, but I don't want it to end . . .ever. Thankfully, I have Rock Boat, but after that, what?

I'm quitting my job, Zac is mad at me, and I'm pretty sure I'm going to end up living in a tent; but I want to be on tour again so bad. I honestly can't imagine living any other way.