"she's got dreams too big for this town"

I want to be on tour again. I want to sleep on the sidewalk. I want to eat gas station pies and pepsi for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I want to drive 500 miles blasting the same song. I want to be front row singing and dancing with my friends. I want Zac to mock my clapping skills. I want to make new friends. I want to beat my record of packing the trunk (less than 2 minutes). I want to pitch a tent. I want to go to QT. I want Taylor to tell me I look fresh at 7 am. I want to drive through 7 states in less than 24 hours. Most of all, I want the feeling I get when the lights go down and the opening chords of "Great Divide" play.

Nothing else compares to that moment, those 2 hours when everything seems right in the world. I often wish I was as naive and ignorant as the 3 year olds in my class. I wish I could be enthralled by looking at a caterpillar and watching it wriggle up a tree for 10 minutes. I wish I could put 2 k'nexes together and really see a house. I wish the hardest thing I was learning was the difference between a circle and a square. When Hanson is on stage, that's what I feel like: a child with no worries except the present task at hand. It really is a very empowering feeling, so much that I want to continuously feel it.

I know that I have to grow up, be an adult, and be responsible but why? Why do I need to stop following my dreams? Who's to say if they're childish or not? Who makes that decision and why do they have so much power?

I wanna worry about the here and now rather than always thinking ahead. Don't get me wrong, it's good to plan; but you only live once and what's the point if you're not going to truly experience it and actually live?