So, we finally have tour dates after a very stressful week. I'll be living on peanut butter and jelly until the end of October and sitting in my house doing nothing; but it's all worth it. There is not a single second I ever think that I can't do everything I want or that I regret anything I have done. I know I have to make sacrifices and I don't mind because when I'm with my friends and Hanson is on stage, I'm truly, truly happy. Everything about tour makes me happy and makes me feel alive: driving down the open road, trying to get to the next show before anyone else so we can be first, eating apple turnovers at 4 in the morning, sleeping on sidewalks, air guitaring to "Lost Without Each Other," guessing the set lists. These are the things I dream about.
I can't imagine not going to see them or choosing not to see them on a tour. I really don't think that is even a choice for me. I look back at the years that there were no tours or anything and they were probably the longest years for me. Hanson tours are what keep me going through the grind of my daily life and if I could just tour around with them forever, I'd be the happiest girl.
I wish everyone could see how much they mean to me and how important they are to my sanity. I wish people could be as passionate and devoted to something as my friends and I are about Hanson. Mostly, I wish Hanson could see how much they mean to us and how they've helped us; because isn't that what it really is? They've helped us get through things in our life that we thought were impossible. They've made us see that there is always a happy ending. That's why they've made such an impact on us; they've made us think anything is possible even when we didn't want to try to see it. It may sound lame to a lot of people but you all wish you had an impact like that in your life. We've grown up with them, and everyone laughs at me when I say that; but honestly how many people have been in your life for your first kiss, getting your license, going off to college, getting your first real job, and all those things that make you you. Sure, Hanson doesn't know most of the nitty gritty about our lives, but they helped us through it all.
I found this somewhere and I really think it applies:
"Bands like Hanson come around once in a lifetime. everytime I listen to them I feel like I am in on the biggest secret, that I'm one of the lucky ones who understands what so many people fail to hear. They never cease to amaze me. I know that as long as hanson keeps producing music, I will always be a fan. It's the greatest craziness I've ever known."
AN EVENING WITH TEGAN + SARA
15 years ago
2 comments:
so i think basically as soon as i think about hanson, listen to hanson, or even read about you talking about hanson, im going to start to cry for the next 3 months. im drowning in my natterz tears! i cant wait to be back in the car, eating apple turnovers & freals, laughing so hard we are legally dead for a few seconds.
so, so badly i wish that they could know for just one second what it feels like to be impacted by them - to be on the other side, to feel the drumbeat in your chest & the crowd swelling behind you & know that is where you belong, right there, listening to that music. that it isnt what they look like or the things that they do (obvs a given lmao as the things they do make me sick & lead me on) that keep us coming back night after night, year after year (turr after turr?) - it's because we are chasing the feeling their music gives us. the reason i am smiling so hard my cheeks hurt while simultaneously sobbing to runaway run as i drive down the road, thinking about the friends that i wouldn't have without the people & the music that brought us together - they are the core of us. there has never been a time where i couldn't turn away from what was going bad in my life and lose myself in the music that feels like home.
it has never been a choice. it has never been a question. it is. it just is. and i cant wait to see those bastards in the fall. young ladies, taylor tanson, and z turr 2008 manifestation of rnr himself. it's just getting better and better. we are so lucky, you know? the nights spent sitting at home watching roseanne reruns and eating pb&j while everyone else is out doing God only knows, I wouldn't trade that in for the world. There is no where else I ever want to be.
can't wait, dude, can't wait. i'd literally hang out at home for 51 weeks out of the year just so i could tour with hanson for one.
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